I
can’t say for sure what held me back this year. I wasn’t really bah humbugging
as much as I was meh humbugging. Distracted? Lazy? A tad depressed? Some
combination of the above? I don’t know. It took me way too long to get the
oomph to get up and decorate. I generally decorate anywhere between the 1st
and 5th. But I didn’t get around to starting until late last night
and into this morning… making this the latest I have ever decorated for
Christmas.
Laziness
I get. It usually takes me a while to get started. But that doesn’t usually
hold me back as once I get started the Christmas elf in me comes out with joy.
Distraction came from Mom and I trying to clear our way too full DVR so we can
replace it as it is screwing up and deleting shows or not recording them
correctly at random. It’s hard to decorate and watch shows, especially ones
with subtitles or clues the audience is supposed to catch. As for the
depression….I don’t know if it was there first or the passing days without the
decorations bummed me out. Now that it’s mostly done, I feel way better. Heck,
I started to feel less depressed the moment I started unpacking the
decorations. I still have a few finishing touches before I consider the
decorating done, but it looks very Christmassy and I am happy.
I
hope Mom doesn’t worry anymore. That is I think I was starting to worry her. While
she doesn’t always want them up, she knows I do. A few days ago, she offered to
help me decorate. She even asked if we were getting a tree, something we haven’t
been able to afford for years. She hasn’t helped decorate since possibly
Anaheim (11 years ago) or maybe as late as Long Beach (9ish years ago). That to
me screams her seeing something was up with me. I have to remember to write her
a card, because while I didn’t feel like taking her up on the offer that day,
the fact that she offered meant a lot to me.
Now
to tackle the Christmas cards! I already sent the international mail out, as I
always send that earlier. Not as early as I wanted as the jerk postman walked
right by my house the day I put them out, but oh well. :-P I’ll get started on
those tomorrow along with getting a jump on some series holiday movie watching.
:-D
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