Not With a Bang But a Fizzle

I've been trying to write this for weeks. And maybe I shouldn't write it as the reason I didn't was because it was a downer. But in holding back, I didn't bother to write anything else either. Well, until today.

Christmas came and went without much fuss. I never got around to doing any baking. Don't even know if we had enough supplies. Though Nana had offered to pay for some and pay me to bake her some. Cards weren't sent en masse, nor did I receive very many. Nana was sick on Christmas so she didn't stop by. We did go to her house one of those days to pick up something. She got me a used computer chair from a closing  factory or something. It's actually just like the chair I had before. It's nice not to have to share a chair anymore. But, anywho, cuz she was sick it was a short trip. Mom's cousin Debbie never dropped by either....a visit I looked forward to each holiday. Sometimes she came with lil gifts (she sells Avon) or some of her fresh baked cookies or sometimes nothing but her fun stories and good times.... No matter what, it was always fun to have her over.

The only signs of Christmas were in the decorations I put up, which I know Mom always mentally ignored when she was out here....and the Christmas movies I half heartedly watched. I still didn't watch the favorites I reserved for closer to the day.

Even New Years' came and went without any fuss. Not that we ever really did anything. But due to the whole sick thing, Nana never made her menudo. We had can stuff later that week. Meh.

If I could leave Mom, maybe I'd just plan to be away for the holidays. If....