Pixie
has always been my problem child. When she moved in, she brought worms which
she of course shared with Oreo. She had an infection here and there. And then
there were repeated trips for UTIs. It sounds like she might have trouble
breathing but the vets haven’t picked up on it or it isn’t serious. We teased
that she was always the problem child. But it was never major….until this year.
Eating
and drinking habits changed. Mom said Pixie seemed lethargic. Until we could
afford a full work up at the vets, we kept putting it off. It didn’t help that
Oreo got a simple infection so the funds went to him, since he’s a senior
citizen and at higher risk of issues….. Turns out he was perfectly healthy for
a sixteen year old cat and didn’t need the full check up. I mean we’re glad we
got it and found out, but Pix needed it more. I wish vets weren’t so expensive.
I don’t remember what prompted
the urgency. But we finally took Pixie to the vet mid August on a Saturday appointment.
Monday morning they called with the results from the blood work. I remember
feeling as if I’d been hit with a blow and as the conversation went on a sense
of dread gripped me. She had high blood sugar levels….diabetes. He said if she
did well on insulin she could live another five years with no problems. It was
the part where he mentioned some cats didn’t do well and didn’t last more than
a few months that had me so scared I’d lose my baby. As Dad pointed out, I’m
usually more positive about situations. And it’s true. Faith has led me to be
more positive in the outcomes of whatever came our way. Maybe because it wasn’t
our usual vet who is so reassuring or still getting over hearing she had a
major problem that took my mind to worst case scenario mode.
We had to take her in that
afternoon so they could regulate her blood sugar levels and figure out what
dosage of insulin to prescribe. Since I’m usually awake all night out in the
living room, Pixie and I are usually keeping each other company. A.K.A. she
spends a lot of the night in my lap off and on all night. But those two nights
were the most depressing nights in a long time. Even with the mini distraction
of Target Tuesday with Dad, it was sad without Pixie in the house. Our minds
went to thoughts of what if…..
Wednesday Dad took me to
pick her up. I wish it had been Mom with us. A med tech had to show me how much
meds to give her…. Me… Tiny needle measurements… Yeah. I didn’t see a thing. I
told Mom the dosage and relayed what he had said as best as I could recall.
Something was lost in translation. Not that we discovered that until much
later.
That first evening Mom said
Pixie looked so much better. She had more life in her eyes. We could breathe
again. Faith she would be okay returned. Thank God. We didn’t really enjoy the
learning process of injecting insulin every day. And by “we”, I mean all three
of us. I had to hold her down. With shaking hands and obvious nervousness, Mom
would try and inject her between the shoulder blades the way we were told.
Pixie of course squirmed and bucked every time. Some of those times before the
insulin made it inside. Sometimes the needles got bent. Sometimes the needles
nearly broke. Some of those times meant giving up on dosing her that day
because Pix was too freaked or Mom was too shaky to try it again. Or Pixie
would hide until we gave up trying and ended up skipping a day here and there.
As we would later find out, it was just as well. We were over dosing her. So
the fact that we only gave her meds half as often as we were supposed to may
have saved her life.
Sunday night a month ago,
Mom called me while I was still at Dad’s house. Pixie had a seizure and Mom had
to find a pet ER. Dad and I packed up our stuff and the groceries I’d bought
and rushed to meet Mom there. Pixie seized again en route. Mom was freaked and
they didn’t fully know what had caused the seizure. It might have been blood
sugar that was too low. Since they had overnight care, Pixie stayed there to be
monitored and get her electrolytes balanced or something. If she was okay by
morning, she could and was moved to our vets’ for monitoring during the day. She
had another seizure there. We brought her home Monday night, since they don’t
have overnight staff. At least she could be comfortable. And I got to
experience what Mom went through. It was not fun watching my baby suffer
another seizure. It was the same report for Tuesday, day and night. Wednesday
she was seizure free. Without seeing a specialist, we didn’t get an official
cause. Low blood sugar may have started it, but the other seizures happened at
normal to high levels.
It was a very sad and
scary week. Because of it, her insulin dose got adjusted. And since Mom was in
with me, she was shown how much. Mom now feels like it was all her fault. I don’t
think it was and I tell her so. Giving Pixie her injections is much easier now,
because it is much less medicine now and vet said we can stick her anywhere. SOOO
much easier now. I think we’ve finally stopped watching and expecting another
seizure. Pixie is so full of life and activity now and loving. Mom says her
coat is shiny and soft compared to the dull and dry look it had been before.
I hope we don’t have any
more scares like that in the future with her or the others. That week took us
down a dark road too. I mean if she didn’t stop, we didn’t want her to suffer.
And we certainly couldn’t afford a specialist. I mean if Dad hadn’t helped we
wouldn’t have afforded the ER. We momentarily discussed putting her down to
spare her. Thank God the seizures stopped. And the vet said they weren’t doing
serious damage to her because they were less than a minute long.
And I realize I’ve just
been babbling on and on about my cat, but she’s my baby. I’ve never wanted
children. I mean as a kid I thought that desire would come when I became an
adult and I even kind of considered it when I was dating Ken. But if I were
completely honest with myself, I never really wanted kids. But these cats….
They ARE my kids. The thought of losing them before their time (or even when it’s
time) scares me….depresses me. Prayers were answered in Pixie’s case. I hope my
prayer for strength when it is time to say goodbye to any of my babies is also
answered favorably.
Anywho… I’ve babbled
enough. For now, all I can say is that I am so grateful for the blessings these
four fur babies are to me and Mom….And to Dad and Nana even though they’re dog
people. :-D